Fairytale Love(页 1) - 澳大利亚文学 -
2007-3-26 04:11
Fairytale
Fairytale Love
I am keeping on missing you, missing you so much. I still can feel your warm, your touch. I know I am doing something wrong. But I just can not control it. I am not a good girl any more, because of the trick of the destiny. If it is only a dream, please never wake me up. But if it is not you, how can my hand matched yours so well? Can I just enjoy the time with you, and consider about nothing?
These are the words I sent to him that morning, after I woke from a dream about him. How can it happen that I said these words to a man whom I have known only for 4 days?
If I am a fortune teller, I will not make this decision to come here, to step into this trap set by the fatal sisters. I will just stay in SH, to lead a life that is hustling, routinely, but still comfortable.
It seems that he has been here waiting for my coming. Even the process of our meeting with each other was so abnormal. Or I may need to say that, actually we do not even have the chance to meet with each other at all. But, we met, and fell in love, I hope it is, just within 3 days. If it is all, then it is still ok, just a little bit too fast time. The problem is, I am married, and I am waiting for my husband to come here to accompany me. What’s more is that, my husband and I loved each other very much, and I think it is still true even now, though the life is boring with him, though we have not seen each other for a long time.
I still can not understand how can this happen. Because of the loneliness, boringness, or because of his helpfulness? But why not others, but him? I can not think out any other reason but the fate.
I know I like him, like his smile, his eyes, his talking, his warm hugs, like his fingers touching me, like his hand holding me when he is driving, like the feeling of staying with him. That’s the feeling I have missed for a long time. When I stay with him, it drew me back to my green time of my first love. We just matched so well, unbelievable.
Who can understand how desperate it is I am suffering from. You know there is a cliff in front of you, but you have no choice but to go forward step by step. You know everything will be gone after three months except for the pain and heart-break, but you have no choice but to take it. I know it is dangerous and will not be blessed, but I still want to hold it, for I can not deny, or maybe I do not want to deny. I just want to enjoy the pleasant times we have now, that is the most realistic, but also the most visional happiness to us. I hope I can take all these things down, whether it is joy or pain. When one day the dream is broken, we will know at least we have ever owned it.
I am keeping on missing you, missing you so much. I still can feel your warm, your touch. I know I am doing something wrong. But I just can not control it. I am not a good girl any more, because of the trick of the destiny. If it is only a dream, please never wake me up. But if it is not you, how can my hand matched yours so well? Can I just enjoy the time with you, and consider about nothing?
These are the words I sent to him that morning, after I woke from a dream about him. How can it happen that I said these words to a man whom I have known only for 4 days?
If I am a fortune teller, I will not make this decision to come here, to step into this trap set by the fatal sisters. I will just stay in SH, to lead a life that is hustling, routinely, but still comfortable.
It seems that he has been here waiting for my coming. Even the process of our meeting with each other was so abnormal. Or I may need to say that, actually we do not even have the chance to meet with each other at all. But, we met, and fell in love, I hope it is, just within 3 days. If it is all, then it is still ok, just a little bit too fast time. The problem is, I am married, and I am waiting for my husband to come here to accompany me. What’s more is that, my husband and I loved each other very much, and I think it is still true even now, though the life is boring with him, though we have not seen each other for a long time.
I still can not understand how can this happen. Because of the loneliness, boringness, or because of his helpfulness? But why not others, but him? I can not think out any other reason but the fate.
I know I like him, like his smile, his eyes, his talking, his warm hugs, like his fingers touching me, like his hand holding me when he is driving, like the feeling of staying with him. That’s the feeling I have missed for a long time. When I stay with him, it drew me back to my green time of my first love. We just matched so well, unbelievable.
Who can understand how desperate it is I am suffering from. You know there is a cliff in front of you, but you have no choice but to go forward step by step. You know everything will be gone after three months except for the pain and heart-break, but you have no choice but to take it. I know it is dangerous and will not be blessed, but I still want to hold it, for I can not deny, or maybe I do not want to deny. I just want to enjoy the pleasant times we have now, that is the most realistic, but also the most visional happiness to us. I hope I can take all these things down, whether it is joy or pain. When one day the dream is broken, we will know at least we have ever owned it.
2007-3-26 14:47
Fairytale
Fairytale Love-First Meet
Day 1
21-Mar, it was the first day I met him. Actually, we were supposed to meet on the Sun, 25, for we had an appointment to visit a place. But things changed, I can not tell it is good or bad. Just because the change of the date, it makes us to come across unexpected situations. There are so many coincidences, which make me do not have the strength or chance to resist the approaching.
Let me draw back the memory of our acquaintance. Actually, I even do not need to draw, because it is too simple, and without any romance. There is a community, which I got to know before I came here. He should be quite famous there. And one day, just by accident, I came into one section that I usually did not visit. And leave my note, which is referring to the sports. Several days later, it occurs to me that I had a message there, so just went to there for a check, and then I saw his. So, we just had several small talks. During the casual conversation, I can easily get his characters. Scorpios always have this talent. He is patient, gentle, circumspect, calm and mature. Of course, he is much more experienced than me. I feel I was just like blank in front of him. He gave me some ideas. So it is quite easy for me to have the feeling to rely on him, although I did not know him at all, we even have never met each other. But I just feel safe and calm when chat with him. Yes, I am that kind of person, whenever I was a little child or now.
Those days, I was suffering form the pressure of the study. Day to day, whole day lecture, reading, assignment, almost drive me to nuts. And I have been here no longer than a month. I am still in the process of adjusting myself to the new environment, new culture, and new study. I am totally new to the field I am studying. You can imagine how frustrated I was. So, after another boring but tough lecture, coming back home, desperate and depressed, I sat in front of my computer, and I saw him. Then our conversation started. He suggested us visit the place he told me last night, which was originally supposed on Sun. But, why not? I was so gloomy, and could not remember even a word which I was reading. Maybe it would be better to take a walk, and refresh myself.
10 minutes later, we got to know each other. Because I was still in the depressing mood, I did not talk too much. And it seemed that he was not a talkative person, even more reticent than when we were chatting on line. Maybe it was because we were not that familiar with each other. But I remembered his eyes, gentle and clear; I remembered his smile, warm and pure; I remember his hand, with slender fingers but still strong; I remembered his look when he was driving, talking. He was not a noisy man, always so calm. When stayed with him, I knew I can trust him, and did not need to worry about anything. Maybe this is the feeling I am lack of, but longing for.
He sent me home, and then we met again in the MSN. When I saw him logged on again in the MSN, there was a special feeling came from the bottom of my heart. I told him I felt better and appreciated his company. He laughed, and joked that I was so easy to deal with. Yes, for someone, and sometime, I am. But in other situations, who knows. Even myself can not understand me, then how can I expect others can understand me.
Day 1
21-Mar, it was the first day I met him. Actually, we were supposed to meet on the Sun, 25, for we had an appointment to visit a place. But things changed, I can not tell it is good or bad. Just because the change of the date, it makes us to come across unexpected situations. There are so many coincidences, which make me do not have the strength or chance to resist the approaching.
Let me draw back the memory of our acquaintance. Actually, I even do not need to draw, because it is too simple, and without any romance. There is a community, which I got to know before I came here. He should be quite famous there. And one day, just by accident, I came into one section that I usually did not visit. And leave my note, which is referring to the sports. Several days later, it occurs to me that I had a message there, so just went to there for a check, and then I saw his. So, we just had several small talks. During the casual conversation, I can easily get his characters. Scorpios always have this talent. He is patient, gentle, circumspect, calm and mature. Of course, he is much more experienced than me. I feel I was just like blank in front of him. He gave me some ideas. So it is quite easy for me to have the feeling to rely on him, although I did not know him at all, we even have never met each other. But I just feel safe and calm when chat with him. Yes, I am that kind of person, whenever I was a little child or now.
Those days, I was suffering form the pressure of the study. Day to day, whole day lecture, reading, assignment, almost drive me to nuts. And I have been here no longer than a month. I am still in the process of adjusting myself to the new environment, new culture, and new study. I am totally new to the field I am studying. You can imagine how frustrated I was. So, after another boring but tough lecture, coming back home, desperate and depressed, I sat in front of my computer, and I saw him. Then our conversation started. He suggested us visit the place he told me last night, which was originally supposed on Sun. But, why not? I was so gloomy, and could not remember even a word which I was reading. Maybe it would be better to take a walk, and refresh myself.
10 minutes later, we got to know each other. Because I was still in the depressing mood, I did not talk too much. And it seemed that he was not a talkative person, even more reticent than when we were chatting on line. Maybe it was because we were not that familiar with each other. But I remembered his eyes, gentle and clear; I remembered his smile, warm and pure; I remember his hand, with slender fingers but still strong; I remembered his look when he was driving, talking. He was not a noisy man, always so calm. When stayed with him, I knew I can trust him, and did not need to worry about anything. Maybe this is the feeling I am lack of, but longing for.
He sent me home, and then we met again in the MSN. When I saw him logged on again in the MSN, there was a special feeling came from the bottom of my heart. I told him I felt better and appreciated his company. He laughed, and joked that I was so easy to deal with. Yes, for someone, and sometime, I am. But in other situations, who knows. Even myself can not understand me, then how can I expect others can understand me.
2007-3-27 16:43
Fairytale
Fairytale Love-Second meet(Chemistry was there)
Actually it is the third day since we knew each other. After the boring lecture, I went to home. My roommate was not home. She had a date with her BF, and would not come back until tomorrow. It was Friday, everyone went out to have fun except me, need to stay home to prepare tomorrow’s lecture. Felt depressing again. But it was so happy to see he was online. He can always sense my mood, and started to chat with me. Like a big brother, he asked to focus on the study, and do not be disturbed by other things. Maybe, he could also take me the library nearby to study. Although I usually did not like the environment of libraries, but this time, I felt different. And also, if I study hard, he would take me to play balls on Sunday, which sounds so attractive, and makes me have the energy to study.
After a while, he suggested go to city to take a walk. That was a good idea. I heard that the night piece of city is quite beautiful. And I was so exhausted after the whole day study. So I decided to go with him. After 15 minutes, we were on our way. For we were more familiar now, the atmosphere was getting casual and close. During the talking and laughing, actually, I feel the something a little bit chemical, which was not good for me now.
We walked around the UTS, I still felt like a stranger here, and he just simply showed me around. We took pix for each other, studied the camera, simple but full of fun. I liked watching him smiling, and my heart would also feel bright and happy. He actually is that kind person who can inspire others. We walked in the China Town. I had been there for once in daytime. That was the first time I was there during night. I had never thought it could be so busy. Lots of people there, and just like the WJ Lu in SH. I followed him, but my steps were always interrupted by others. Then he would stop and wait for me, joking that he did not want me to be lost. I smiled. Actually, I really had the impulse to hold his hand. But I didn’t.
It was not early any more, and he sent me home. In the car, I just hoped the road could be longer and longer. But, finally, we were there. Could I stay till and not go home? No, I have no reason to do that. So, just said goodbye nicely, and turned around.
Actually it is the third day since we knew each other. After the boring lecture, I went to home. My roommate was not home. She had a date with her BF, and would not come back until tomorrow. It was Friday, everyone went out to have fun except me, need to stay home to prepare tomorrow’s lecture. Felt depressing again. But it was so happy to see he was online. He can always sense my mood, and started to chat with me. Like a big brother, he asked to focus on the study, and do not be disturbed by other things. Maybe, he could also take me the library nearby to study. Although I usually did not like the environment of libraries, but this time, I felt different. And also, if I study hard, he would take me to play balls on Sunday, which sounds so attractive, and makes me have the energy to study.
After a while, he suggested go to city to take a walk. That was a good idea. I heard that the night piece of city is quite beautiful. And I was so exhausted after the whole day study. So I decided to go with him. After 15 minutes, we were on our way. For we were more familiar now, the atmosphere was getting casual and close. During the talking and laughing, actually, I feel the something a little bit chemical, which was not good for me now.
We walked around the UTS, I still felt like a stranger here, and he just simply showed me around. We took pix for each other, studied the camera, simple but full of fun. I liked watching him smiling, and my heart would also feel bright and happy. He actually is that kind person who can inspire others. We walked in the China Town. I had been there for once in daytime. That was the first time I was there during night. I had never thought it could be so busy. Lots of people there, and just like the WJ Lu in SH. I followed him, but my steps were always interrupted by others. Then he would stop and wait for me, joking that he did not want me to be lost. I smiled. Actually, I really had the impulse to hold his hand. But I didn’t.
It was not early any more, and he sent me home. In the car, I just hoped the road could be longer and longer. But, finally, we were there. Could I stay till and not go home? No, I have no reason to do that. So, just said goodbye nicely, and turned around.
2007-3-27 18:16
Fairytale
Fairytale Love-This moment, I feel close to you.
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[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Logged on the computer, a feeling of loneliness surrounded me. I was the only one in this house, though I really want someone can stay with me. He must feel the same. [/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“So boring…” I typed.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“How can it be interesting? Maybe you can come to my house. I know that you can not read by yourself”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“Are you joking?”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“No. If you come, I will not let you go.”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]I stopped, but I can feel the hard heart beats.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“What more terrible, I have only one bed here.” He was going on.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“So, that means…… some one need to sleep on the floor” I just try to direct it to another way.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“Yes, I can be the one sleeps on the floor.” It sounds serious.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“Then it may be better to come to my house, we have too beds here, and I will be alone tonight.” Even now, I still can not understand why I typed these words. FT[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“OK, I will come to accompany you to study.” It sounds serious too. And he is good at catch opportunities.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“No, I know something will happen.” It is to be proved true.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“No, nothing, do not need to worry about that.” Men are always performed like gentlemen, aren’t they?[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]I paused again.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“Sorry, I am still worried about that.”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“OK, then you just go to study.” A man who is good at Sun Zi War Arts is always more dangerous.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Which made me feel a little bit disappointed, but I could loose my breath now. I was just aware that I got so nervous just now.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“But I know you can not totally read even a single word.” Yes, he was right. He really knew what I was thinking. FT[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“I want to come to you.”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Five minutes later, I typed “OK”.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]I knew what that means, but, I can not refuse, and I do not want to refuse. I knew I wanted him as well. There could be no other time which was better than that night. The whole house was available for us two. So I called it as the trick of the destiny. If we were not able to meet the day before, things may be a totally different story. But now, it was. Or, you may say it is just my excuse. Ok, I take it, because I really want him, and don’t want to miss him.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]We spend almost two hours to preview the textbook for my study. And then, just some small chats. I almost though the whole night would be like this until the light was turned off. Moonlight will make the hormones works differently. I could not remember who said this. But I know it worked. [/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]This moment, I felt he was close to me. With his arm surrounding me, I can easily feel his warm, and his pulse, strong and fast. Then, his breath beside my ear tingle me. I was trembling, not for fear, but for the desire. I turned around my head, but to find his lips were waiting for me. Just gently, gently, fit my lips with his. Warm, sweet, light, kiss. He held me, kissed me, and caressed me. Was I drunk? Then how I felt so inebrious? Soft and powerless, could I stay in his bosom for ever? I don’t want to wake up, just let’s have this crazy and sweet love, love, love.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000][/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Logged on the computer, a feeling of loneliness surrounded me. I was the only one in this house, though I really want someone can stay with me. He must feel the same. [/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“So boring…” I typed.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“How can it be interesting? Maybe you can come to my house. I know that you can not read by yourself”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“Are you joking?”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“No. If you come, I will not let you go.”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]I stopped, but I can feel the hard heart beats.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“What more terrible, I have only one bed here.” He was going on.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“So, that means…… some one need to sleep on the floor” I just try to direct it to another way.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“Yes, I can be the one sleeps on the floor.” It sounds serious.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“Then it may be better to come to my house, we have too beds here, and I will be alone tonight.” Even now, I still can not understand why I typed these words. FT[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“OK, I will come to accompany you to study.” It sounds serious too. And he is good at catch opportunities.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“No, I know something will happen.” It is to be proved true.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“No, nothing, do not need to worry about that.” Men are always performed like gentlemen, aren’t they?[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]I paused again.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“Sorry, I am still worried about that.”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“OK, then you just go to study.” A man who is good at Sun Zi War Arts is always more dangerous.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Which made me feel a little bit disappointed, but I could loose my breath now. I was just aware that I got so nervous just now.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“But I know you can not totally read even a single word.” Yes, he was right. He really knew what I was thinking. FT[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]“I want to come to you.”[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Five minutes later, I typed “OK”.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]I knew what that means, but, I can not refuse, and I do not want to refuse. I knew I wanted him as well. There could be no other time which was better than that night. The whole house was available for us two. So I called it as the trick of the destiny. If we were not able to meet the day before, things may be a totally different story. But now, it was. Or, you may say it is just my excuse. Ok, I take it, because I really want him, and don’t want to miss him.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]We spend almost two hours to preview the textbook for my study. And then, just some small chats. I almost though the whole night would be like this until the light was turned off. Moonlight will make the hormones works differently. I could not remember who said this. But I know it worked. [/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]This moment, I felt he was close to me. With his arm surrounding me, I can easily feel his warm, and his pulse, strong and fast. Then, his breath beside my ear tingle me. I was trembling, not for fear, but for the desire. I turned around my head, but to find his lips were waiting for me. Just gently, gently, fit my lips with his. Warm, sweet, light, kiss. He held me, kissed me, and caressed me. Was I drunk? Then how I felt so inebrious? Soft and powerless, could I stay in his bosom for ever? I don’t want to wake up, just let’s have this crazy and sweet love, love, love.[/color][/size][/font]
2007-3-28 23:19
Fairytale
Is anyone in the world concerned about me? Or maybe I just want too much ? I always get involved too deep, and i think others are the same. But actually, it is not. That's why I am always hurt, hurt by myself. Feel cold in this city, although it has the most beautiful sunshine. Sitting in the train, I hope it can go on and on, and never stop...
2007-3-28 23:22
cw
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2007-3-29 01:17
Fairytale
:sleep:
2007-3-29 06:40
Fairytale
Fairytale Love - Hand in Hand
Sleeping with in his warm bosom, hearing his heart beating, I spent the first night with him. But however sweet it is, I need to get up to go to school. When I prepare the stuffs for the lecture, he is just waiting for me outside. In such a fresh morning, it feels so good to be waited. After the whole night, he must be exhausted, and I know he will still have a busy day today. But he insisted in sending me to school. With his goodbye kiss, I started the lecture. But the whole day, I did not know what the professor was talking about, totally absent-minded. My heart was occupied by him, totally. I can’t wait for finishing the class. And he came to pick me up for dinner. It was starting to rain. Looking at the rain drops falling down, a little bit sad, but romantic. When we took off the car, I saw he stretched out his hand, and I gave him mine. This was the first time he took my hand. At the moment I touched his hand, I feel we are really a whole person now. His hand could cover my hand rightly, strong, warm, but holding me gently. From then on, we usually walking hand in hand, even when he was driving, he still took my hand. I like the feeling of touching each other, which means there is no distance between you too. You know you will not lose him.
In the way, I asked him to teach me his language, because it is funny, but also because I want to understand him. He taught me the sentence “L Love You”. When he said out that sentence, I felt my heart was shocked. I did not know he said this sentence on purposes or just by random. But I really hope, he said this to me, for me. However, I could not expect that, that did not belong to me. Staying with him was already so luxurious for me, what could I ask more? So I just pretended to cheat it as a joke…Sometimes, there was no choice for you.
That night, he told me that he likes me.
I know it is fast, but, I also know this is true.
I always trust my feeling. Yes, he likes me, and I like him too.
So, tonight, I can fall asleep with my hand in yours, and with your heart in mine.
Good night, dear.
It is so late now. Maybe I should say it is so early, because I see the light of the dawn.
I have missed the whole night dream, but I have you.
Just sorry that I can not give you the morning-kiss this morning.
Have a nice Day!
Sleeping with in his warm bosom, hearing his heart beating, I spent the first night with him. But however sweet it is, I need to get up to go to school. When I prepare the stuffs for the lecture, he is just waiting for me outside. In such a fresh morning, it feels so good to be waited. After the whole night, he must be exhausted, and I know he will still have a busy day today. But he insisted in sending me to school. With his goodbye kiss, I started the lecture. But the whole day, I did not know what the professor was talking about, totally absent-minded. My heart was occupied by him, totally. I can’t wait for finishing the class. And he came to pick me up for dinner. It was starting to rain. Looking at the rain drops falling down, a little bit sad, but romantic. When we took off the car, I saw he stretched out his hand, and I gave him mine. This was the first time he took my hand. At the moment I touched his hand, I feel we are really a whole person now. His hand could cover my hand rightly, strong, warm, but holding me gently. From then on, we usually walking hand in hand, even when he was driving, he still took my hand. I like the feeling of touching each other, which means there is no distance between you too. You know you will not lose him.
In the way, I asked him to teach me his language, because it is funny, but also because I want to understand him. He taught me the sentence “L Love You”. When he said out that sentence, I felt my heart was shocked. I did not know he said this sentence on purposes or just by random. But I really hope, he said this to me, for me. However, I could not expect that, that did not belong to me. Staying with him was already so luxurious for me, what could I ask more? So I just pretended to cheat it as a joke…Sometimes, there was no choice for you.
That night, he told me that he likes me.
I know it is fast, but, I also know this is true.
I always trust my feeling. Yes, he likes me, and I like him too.
So, tonight, I can fall asleep with my hand in yours, and with your heart in mine.
Good night, dear.
It is so late now. Maybe I should say it is so early, because I see the light of the dawn.
I have missed the whole night dream, but I have you.
Just sorry that I can not give you the morning-kiss this morning.
Have a nice Day!
2007-3-29 14:28
Fairytale
Fairytale Love - Enjoy the sports as well as the silence
Then just let’s move on to the Sunday. That’s was the date for sports. And this is quite funny that this was actually the real reason which let us have the chance to know each other. But now, everything was totally reversed. But anyway, we have a joyous time together. I haven’t sported for a long time. It feels so good to make yourself sweated, and exhausted. You can see your energy and spirit are blooming. Your unhappiness and bothers are all gone with the sweat, and your whole body is renewed. Of course, sports can make us feel closer. You do not need to hide yourself beside the veil, the one there is the real you. And I can identify you, finally.
Feel really tired after the sports. So we just found a place to park the car and take a rest. It was raining again outside. Sitting inside the car, listening the rain dropping down, this is the universal belongs to us only. Music was going on and on, I lay on his arm, and clasped his neck. This is my favorite posture, because I can hear his heart, his breath and know we belong to each other. Rain, music, kiss, totally relaxed, I had never felt so relaxed since I came here. But now, I really can enjoy the silence now. We played with each others fingers and talked small jokes and words. No one can interrupt us, we are the world.
Then just let’s move on to the Sunday. That’s was the date for sports. And this is quite funny that this was actually the real reason which let us have the chance to know each other. But now, everything was totally reversed. But anyway, we have a joyous time together. I haven’t sported for a long time. It feels so good to make yourself sweated, and exhausted. You can see your energy and spirit are blooming. Your unhappiness and bothers are all gone with the sweat, and your whole body is renewed. Of course, sports can make us feel closer. You do not need to hide yourself beside the veil, the one there is the real you. And I can identify you, finally.
Feel really tired after the sports. So we just found a place to park the car and take a rest. It was raining again outside. Sitting inside the car, listening the rain dropping down, this is the universal belongs to us only. Music was going on and on, I lay on his arm, and clasped his neck. This is my favorite posture, because I can hear his heart, his breath and know we belong to each other. Rain, music, kiss, totally relaxed, I had never felt so relaxed since I came here. But now, I really can enjoy the silence now. We played with each others fingers and talked small jokes and words. No one can interrupt us, we are the world.
2007-4-1 04:35
Fairytale
Fairytale Love - Diversion
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]During the dinner, he asked me, if he would be a good Daddy. Yes, I answered without any hesitate. For sure, he will. He can spend dozens of minutes to shell shrimps for me. And I found a kind of delicious and special fruit in the fruit soup, and he also can spend time to collect those fruits for me. It is not easy to collect that fruit, because this fruit is lucid, and there are only a few of them. But he did it, did it for me.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Then, are the following five boring work days. He needs to work. I can understand, he is tired, and do not have so much time to spend with me. But I have no class to attend the whole week, and I have got used to stay with someone all the time. So I feel really depressing those days. Stay in the room for the whole day, and miss him. But what can I do, I can not bother his work. What can I do is just reading all the chatting records between us, and reading the messages and other things he left on the community. And, after several days, I can almost recite the conversations between us.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]The Thursday, I went to visit my sister, and came back quite late. Usually, I got up early in the morning, and gave him a morning kiss. And when he reached home after work, I was waiting there to say hello. And the day before that night, I worked till 5:30 am to finish my homework. And get up 9:30 to say good morning. But I did not tell him I would go out today. I was intended to do that. I just wanted to see if he would be worried about me. But, I was so disappointed when I arrived home around 8:00pm without any call or message from him. I thought what I concerned with him was much much more than what he concerned with me. The day before that day, he did not show up as usual, I was afraid he was ill, so I called him. But actually he just did not log onto the MSN. I know sometimes I am easily to get nervous, but the only reason of that is I am concerned with him. But for him, he said nothing about my abnormal absent. I felt bad, like I was abandoned by all the people in the world. That’s the reason of those words.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Anyway, this did not influence the emotion between us. But, it leads to my reconsideration of our relationship, and the feeling towards him. Does it mean I begin to calm down, or I begin to lose my passion? Actually, I have thought this over and over, do I love him, or I just love the love itself. I don’t know where the answer is. For sure, the feeling with him is quite different from that with my HB. But I really like the feeling within his hug. I have asked one of my best friends. She said, calm down, figure out, and then make decision. But how? I am totally lost now. Anyway, just leave it there. Move on, there should be always a way after the corner.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]During the dinner, he asked me, if he would be a good Daddy. Yes, I answered without any hesitate. For sure, he will. He can spend dozens of minutes to shell shrimps for me. And I found a kind of delicious and special fruit in the fruit soup, and he also can spend time to collect those fruits for me. It is not easy to collect that fruit, because this fruit is lucid, and there are only a few of them. But he did it, did it for me.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Then, are the following five boring work days. He needs to work. I can understand, he is tired, and do not have so much time to spend with me. But I have no class to attend the whole week, and I have got used to stay with someone all the time. So I feel really depressing those days. Stay in the room for the whole day, and miss him. But what can I do, I can not bother his work. What can I do is just reading all the chatting records between us, and reading the messages and other things he left on the community. And, after several days, I can almost recite the conversations between us.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]The Thursday, I went to visit my sister, and came back quite late. Usually, I got up early in the morning, and gave him a morning kiss. And when he reached home after work, I was waiting there to say hello. And the day before that night, I worked till 5:30 am to finish my homework. And get up 9:30 to say good morning. But I did not tell him I would go out today. I was intended to do that. I just wanted to see if he would be worried about me. But, I was so disappointed when I arrived home around 8:00pm without any call or message from him. I thought what I concerned with him was much much more than what he concerned with me. The day before that day, he did not show up as usual, I was afraid he was ill, so I called him. But actually he just did not log onto the MSN. I know sometimes I am easily to get nervous, but the only reason of that is I am concerned with him. But for him, he said nothing about my abnormal absent. I felt bad, like I was abandoned by all the people in the world. That’s the reason of those words.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Anyway, this did not influence the emotion between us. But, it leads to my reconsideration of our relationship, and the feeling towards him. Does it mean I begin to calm down, or I begin to lose my passion? Actually, I have thought this over and over, do I love him, or I just love the love itself. I don’t know where the answer is. For sure, the feeling with him is quite different from that with my HB. But I really like the feeling within his hug. I have asked one of my best friends. She said, calm down, figure out, and then make decision. But how? I am totally lost now. Anyway, just leave it there. Move on, there should be always a way after the corner.[/color][/size][/font]
2007-4-3 03:43
Fairytale
Fairytale Love -If love is pain, I will suffer it.
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]If love is pain, I am willing to suffer it. It is my destiny.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]These days, I am keeping on thinking, if he is the one I wanted. But it is a pity that, he is not. Yes, I am very happy when I stay with him. And I know he can take very good of me. And he is very good-tempered, and can always think for others. But, he is a work-oriented person. Actually, he has mixed his own life with his work. I told him this before. Everything he did is for his work. His friends are made through his work, his entertainment is for his work, even his girlfriend is from his work, and their dating, for work too! I know career is very important to a man, but, it could not be everything for him. But for him, it is everything. I am afraid he will lose himself in his work, I can hardly bear that. Maybe this is not bad. At least, it can give me an excuse to keep away from him, to keep a normal distance with him. But anyway, we had a happy time together. Although I was always confused, we came here for me or for his work? Actually, I joked with him about this. I said your wife will not be happy if you always focus on your work. But soon, I gave up. It is not easy to persuade him. He has his own thinking and philosophy. And he is that kind of person, if he made a decision or if he had a habit, it is very hard to change.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Before that night, I though he is just that kind of person, which I can not agree with. But after the long conversation during that Sun. dinner, I began to understand the reason, or maybe I need to say I hope this is the reason. We did not talk too much about our old time. Maybe we think there is no need to do this, because our relationship is temporary. But that night, we talked a lot. He told me all his stories, love stories. I did not ask him. He just said, just like telling a story. Most time, I just listen, and may give my comments time to time. There is no need here to repeat his stories. But what I want to say is that, that are not happy experiences. He told me his three X-girls. And all do not have a happy ending. He was always the one who had been cheated or betrayed. But I can see that, he still loves his first girlfriend. He just did not want to accept that. When he talked about her, his face is full of happiness and gentle, just like she was still there. And when he stayed with me, hug or making love. He will say how he did that with his first friends. You know, he is a person who always take care of others feeling. But that time, he always ignores my feelings! Maybe he just thinks the relationship between us was not serious. So I will not care about that. But actually, I did mind, mind it very much. How can a women bear the man talking about the other women when he amore with you? But I can not say anything, can I? Who am I? Who are we? We are just lovers, maybe only sexual partner, temporary ones. So I do not have the right to show my unhappiness, or maybe angry. But I can feel my heart hurt. I do care about what he talked about his x-girl. I am afraid I was falling love with him. Anyway, however heart-broken I was, I understand, I think I understand why he always focuses so much on his work. Because of the bad memories, because, he was suffered from that before, he now, just want protect himself, and trust things that he thinks he can trust. Your work will never betray you, right? When I knew his past, I have the idea of departing. Because I know, this time, there will not be a good ending of our relationship. He will be hurt definitely, and this time, I am the murder. I really do not want him to be hurt again. He said, he know what will happen, our future is expected. So he can control well. But who knows? Love, is the last thing can be controlled. Can I give up you, how can I give up you? I am afraid I can not let you go. Please forgive me for my selfishness.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]If love is pain, I am willing to suffer it. It is my destiny.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]These days, I am keeping on thinking, if he is the one I wanted. But it is a pity that, he is not. Yes, I am very happy when I stay with him. And I know he can take very good of me. And he is very good-tempered, and can always think for others. But, he is a work-oriented person. Actually, he has mixed his own life with his work. I told him this before. Everything he did is for his work. His friends are made through his work, his entertainment is for his work, even his girlfriend is from his work, and their dating, for work too! I know career is very important to a man, but, it could not be everything for him. But for him, it is everything. I am afraid he will lose himself in his work, I can hardly bear that. Maybe this is not bad. At least, it can give me an excuse to keep away from him, to keep a normal distance with him. But anyway, we had a happy time together. Although I was always confused, we came here for me or for his work? Actually, I joked with him about this. I said your wife will not be happy if you always focus on your work. But soon, I gave up. It is not easy to persuade him. He has his own thinking and philosophy. And he is that kind of person, if he made a decision or if he had a habit, it is very hard to change.[/color][/size][/font]
[font=Times New Roman][size=3][color=#000000]Before that night, I though he is just that kind of person, which I can not agree with. But after the long conversation during that Sun. dinner, I began to understand the reason, or maybe I need to say I hope this is the reason. We did not talk too much about our old time. Maybe we think there is no need to do this, because our relationship is temporary. But that night, we talked a lot. He told me all his stories, love stories. I did not ask him. He just said, just like telling a story. Most time, I just listen, and may give my comments time to time. There is no need here to repeat his stories. But what I want to say is that, that are not happy experiences. He told me his three X-girls. And all do not have a happy ending. He was always the one who had been cheated or betrayed. But I can see that, he still loves his first girlfriend. He just did not want to accept that. When he talked about her, his face is full of happiness and gentle, just like she was still there. And when he stayed with me, hug or making love. He will say how he did that with his first friends. You know, he is a person who always take care of others feeling. But that time, he always ignores my feelings! Maybe he just thinks the relationship between us was not serious. So I will not care about that. But actually, I did mind, mind it very much. How can a women bear the man talking about the other women when he amore with you? But I can not say anything, can I? Who am I? Who are we? We are just lovers, maybe only sexual partner, temporary ones. So I do not have the right to show my unhappiness, or maybe angry. But I can feel my heart hurt. I do care about what he talked about his x-girl. I am afraid I was falling love with him. Anyway, however heart-broken I was, I understand, I think I understand why he always focuses so much on his work. Because of the bad memories, because, he was suffered from that before, he now, just want protect himself, and trust things that he thinks he can trust. Your work will never betray you, right? When I knew his past, I have the idea of departing. Because I know, this time, there will not be a good ending of our relationship. He will be hurt definitely, and this time, I am the murder. I really do not want him to be hurt again. He said, he know what will happen, our future is expected. So he can control well. But who knows? Love, is the last thing can be controlled. Can I give up you, how can I give up you? I am afraid I can not let you go. Please forgive me for my selfishness.[/color][/size][/font]
2007-4-3 14:46
Fairytale
Fairytale Love - Danger
One of my friends told me that, if it is too easy for a man to catch you, then he will not cherish you. Actually, this is the question I want to ask you, although I do not think the theory is right. My theory is that, the value determined the attitude. But, between us, it is really too easy to get me. And then on, I am always the positive one, and you are the passive one. That’s why I always want to prove that you are concerned about me. Sometimes, I even go to a little bit morbid for this.
Yesterday, I planned to go to attend an activity with someone else. I told you. I knew you did not want me to go, and I could guess the reason. But I just want you to speak it out. I gave you two chances, but you did not. Just keeps on saying those silly excuses, such as not safe, too late, or something else. I got really annoyed. Then I made the appointment with that one. It is quite interesting that, both of you are quite sensitive with each other. I don’t know why, because you two are not familiar with each other, but, just some special things are there. Actually I did not want to attend the activity, because I felt tired and the venue is quite far away. But, I made the appointment just because you did not say that words. If you did, I will cancel the appointment immediately. Finally, it is me again who lose the game. I ways can not persist in to the last minute. I gave up to you. But I hope you can understand the reason, understand me.
I have got the material for the accompany visa from my HB for several days. But I have not even touched it. If it is not you, I maybe already finish the application. But now, I just prolong, prolong. But I can prolong it for days, can not always. At last, I still need to send it out. And then, what can we do? That means the doom of our relationship, right? I never expected we can stay together forever, but I do hope you can keep me in your heart forever.
It is a dangerous relationship. The more we get involved, the more dangerous it is. Just like last night. If such things always happen, then we may need to finish it. But it is beautiful and charming just because it is dangerous. And we can not extricate ourselves from it.
I don’t know why I changed the personal pronoun. Write it down like writing a letter to you. Maybe these are the words I want to tell you. But you may not read it at all. I will be the only reader. It is not bad, my private garden.
One of my friends told me that, if it is too easy for a man to catch you, then he will not cherish you. Actually, this is the question I want to ask you, although I do not think the theory is right. My theory is that, the value determined the attitude. But, between us, it is really too easy to get me. And then on, I am always the positive one, and you are the passive one. That’s why I always want to prove that you are concerned about me. Sometimes, I even go to a little bit morbid for this.
Yesterday, I planned to go to attend an activity with someone else. I told you. I knew you did not want me to go, and I could guess the reason. But I just want you to speak it out. I gave you two chances, but you did not. Just keeps on saying those silly excuses, such as not safe, too late, or something else. I got really annoyed. Then I made the appointment with that one. It is quite interesting that, both of you are quite sensitive with each other. I don’t know why, because you two are not familiar with each other, but, just some special things are there. Actually I did not want to attend the activity, because I felt tired and the venue is quite far away. But, I made the appointment just because you did not say that words. If you did, I will cancel the appointment immediately. Finally, it is me again who lose the game. I ways can not persist in to the last minute. I gave up to you. But I hope you can understand the reason, understand me.
I have got the material for the accompany visa from my HB for several days. But I have not even touched it. If it is not you, I maybe already finish the application. But now, I just prolong, prolong. But I can prolong it for days, can not always. At last, I still need to send it out. And then, what can we do? That means the doom of our relationship, right? I never expected we can stay together forever, but I do hope you can keep me in your heart forever.
It is a dangerous relationship. The more we get involved, the more dangerous it is. Just like last night. If such things always happen, then we may need to finish it. But it is beautiful and charming just because it is dangerous. And we can not extricate ourselves from it.
I don’t know why I changed the personal pronoun. Write it down like writing a letter to you. Maybe these are the words I want to tell you. But you may not read it at all. I will be the only reader. It is not bad, my private garden.
2007-5-1 15:58
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Fairytale Love - confession
It is a long time since I wrote last piece. That does not mean I forget about it. The reason is just that the life is too happy to inspire me to write anything down. Love can make women blind and stupid…and lazy. I have to confess that now.
It is said that, true love can only last for three months. If things are like this, it will be perfect. But after three months, can we retreat to what we had been without any defection? No, we can not. That's impossible. Because, I love you. I have tried, try not to love you, try to keep the safe distance with you, and whatever we have, try to not be involved too much emotion. I am avoiding to say love to you, always like, only like. But that night, it was the first time I said that three words. People are weak in night. Another good excuse. I do not want to escape, do not want to be hurt any more. Only want to show my true feeling to you, and at the same time, know your true feelings. After saying that, I feel so happy and released. You said you love me more than I do. But I think my love is no less than yours, sometimes I just want to hide it. Actually, sometimes, I do want know what you are thinking about. But anyway, that’s not that important. Just enjoy what we have now, and try to maintain. Look forward to happier life~
It is a long time since I wrote last piece. That does not mean I forget about it. The reason is just that the life is too happy to inspire me to write anything down. Love can make women blind and stupid…and lazy. I have to confess that now.
It is said that, true love can only last for three months. If things are like this, it will be perfect. But after three months, can we retreat to what we had been without any defection? No, we can not. That's impossible. Because, I love you. I have tried, try not to love you, try to keep the safe distance with you, and whatever we have, try to not be involved too much emotion. I am avoiding to say love to you, always like, only like. But that night, it was the first time I said that three words. People are weak in night. Another good excuse. I do not want to escape, do not want to be hurt any more. Only want to show my true feeling to you, and at the same time, know your true feelings. After saying that, I feel so happy and released. You said you love me more than I do. But I think my love is no less than yours, sometimes I just want to hide it. Actually, sometimes, I do want know what you are thinking about. But anyway, that’s not that important. Just enjoy what we have now, and try to maintain. Look forward to happier life~
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